#Olivia #Caridi was on "The Bachelor [VIDEO]" and the reality star did get a hard time while on the show. Now, Refinery 29 is sharing that Olivia admits that she was suicidal when the show was over. It sounds like this was really rough on her being judged by the entire world. She was portrayed as a villain on the show, but Olivia says that the show didn't make her look like she really is in her normal day to day life.

Olivia reveals all on a podcast

Olivia has her own podcast, just like a lot of the stars of these shows have done. She was on Mouthing Off with Olivia Caridi and talking to Amy Kaufman when she decided that it was time to reveal all.

Olivia was on the show a long time ago, but she is just now speaking out about how she felt after the reality series.

She admits that it took her a really long time to get over everything that happened from being on "#The Bachelor." She explained saying, "I was suicidal. I've had depression my entire life. When the show was airing, I was getting messages saying I should kill myself, and, you know, you're not worthy of living." Olivia even asked the show if they would help cover her expenses to get help with her mental health. The show refused to pay for anything, but they did have Dr. Selden call her every so often. That was it. She says that Leah Block also asked for help paying for mental health expenses.

The reality star shares about bullying

Olivia Caridi says that she does feel like she was bullied on the show.

She thought a producer named Caitlin was a really good friend of hers, but later found out that she would say things about her behind her back. This reminds every one of the show "Unreal" and how they show the way that things really are behind the scenes. She even says that the producers would tell her things like that Ben Higgins wanted to talk to her first and she would grab him, but then they would make it look like she did it on purpose.

She is not the first girl from the show to admit to having problems and probably won't be the last one either. Olivia also dealt with a hard time in the press and on social networks from her time on the show and most of the contestants have to deal with this part of it.

Are you shocked to hear that Olivia Caridi says she was suicidal after being on "The Bachelor"? Do you feel like this show should do more to prevent things like this from happening? Sound off in the comments section below on your thoughts, and don't miss new episodes of "The Bachelorette [VIDEO]" with Becca K when they start airing on May 28, 2018, on ABC.