Kelly Clarkson may have found success after she won "American Idol" in 2002, but that does not mean she had an easy life after the breakthrough. In an interview for the Award's Issue of Attitude magazine, the singer-songwriter talked about the pressure being in the spotlight has had on her, to the point that she wanted to kill herself.
"When I was really skinny, I wanted to kill myself," she confessed. "I was miserable, like inside and out, for four years of my life. But no one cared, because aesthetically you make sense."
Singer looks back at her darkest moments after career breakthrough
The "Piece by Piece" artist described that phase as the darkest moment of her life, as she thought that the only solution was to give up.
Kelly Clarkson later found comfort in going to the gym to work out and run, although that did not wash away the loneliness she was feeling.
After several years of living in sadness, the singer realized the need for her to make a change and to cut negative people out of her life. "I was around some really negative people, and I got out of it because I had a lot of great people there, too," she explained.
Kelly Clarkson thought it was the time to look on the bright side and move forward from the darkness. The "American Idol" winner is also happy to have found love in her husband, Brandon Blackstock, with whom she shares two lovely daughters and two stepchildren from his previous marriage.
Kelly Clarkson gushes about her husband Brandon Blackstock
The "Stronger" artist started dating her talent manager in 2012. The two tied the knot a year later, and were blessed with their first child in 2014. Kelly Clarkson also confessed how Brandon Blackstock has inspired her new music. "He makes me feel so sexy," she mused.
Although she has learned to embrace herself with confidence, the singer felt even more inspired having someone to remind her of her good qualities. Meanwhile, Kelly Clarkson is currently preparing for the release of her new album, "Meaning of Life," on October 27.
She already dropped two tracks from the upcoming album, "Love So Soft" and "Move You," last month.
Her eighth studio album consists of 14 songs. She also participated in co-writing some of her songs, including "Whole Lotta Woman," "Would You Call That Love" and "I Don't Think About You."
This will be her first release since she signed a long-term worldwide deal with new label Atlantic Records in 2016.